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Tuesday, September 13, 2005
MY TRUE FEELLINGS
10:02 AM
I dont even know whether to start this blog entry with a 'HEY' or not. im seriously not me. ya its like AGAIN. im totally not me. thats fact okays! get me. i actually feel like banging all my angers from the past all here.but i just cant! its like excuse me.people are reading my blog. sometimes i just feel like locking my blog just for a single entry where all my true feelings can be all out. and then happily delete the entry and done. whatever it is. you guys may find it stupid for all i care. like who cares. some of you dont even know what im feeling now. instead no one knows. i just dont want to tell any human beings. just dont be stupid and give me and idea on talking to my cats who cant even reply me at all except for their irritating MEOWINGS. everything to me is irritating. even things that are not living things. whats gone into me. do i sound like im getting depression to you? the answer is NO. i aint getting depression. im just pissed off by life. yes BY LIFE. and if you ask me whats wrong with my life. let me tell this to you. EVERYTHING. everything in life cant sucks even more.its been long i have ever use this sentence but i just have to use it now. ' LIFE IS A TRASH' . trash as in like rubbish. ya it smells so rotten. and my life is rotten. i have no idea what im talking about.im just letting go of everything little by little.because i just cant stand it anymore.


DAMN. im so pissed now. and my dad is keeping on asking why can our religion eat this and why cant our religion eat that. HOW IN THE WORLD YOU EXPECT ME TO KNOW.do you think i even bother. go ask god. AND now what.talking about dog. why cant we touch dog.I DONT CARE im so pissed and you jolly well ask me stupid question. later when i sream at you. you blame me for being rude. can you understand me for once. all you know is to control and to control. what the hell you know about me. huh? do you even ask me and advice me when you read my diary. do you even care. all you did was to scold me. and threaten to tear it. let see. dont say you never like a girl when you are in secondary school. dont come and lie. if you dont. guess that you are a total nerd, gay or what so ever. all you did was to shout and scream for me to stop liking the guy. what the hell. do you ever talk nicely to me? only when you need help. tell me whats your true problem.


you guys can just see. how horrible my life is. my family isnt broke or what. they are practically financially stable. just that their attitude sucks. do they need to attend parenting talk. just when at home things are getting worse. then came my life stuff. one by one problems are adding. all this are just too much. just too much. i feel like exploding. i want to break myself into tiny lilttle bits that no one can even fixed me back. i want to run away from reality. i dont belong here. this is just not me. this is JUST NOT ME. i aint myself anymore. im controlling some parts of this horrible life. i just cant tell. its just me and my heart and mind. i wish to tell but i just cant. something is stopping me from telling it to you guys.I HATE THIS.


at first it was them and then came you. but because of you i give up hope to everything. since you will be just friends then its okay with me. but all i can tell is that i cant bring myself to lay my eyes on any other guys. im stopping all this thing. all i want is study. and ya. i will study.


eileen. hey you didnt make me sad or what. you made me realised that i have to study. what you told me actually made me have more motivation to study. yes it had an impact. but nope. i aint going to be sad about it. im happy. because once again.my heart is open for me to study. im not saying that i will forget him but i will just let it be. no use crying like what i did in the past right. i know i must be strong. ((:


yup. going to stop here.think that all this are crap to you? fine then. i dont care much.



Breaking down and noway to stop
The rain keeps falling and so do i.
You cant see what your doing to me
Everyone thinks they know
But they dont have any idea
They dont understand the pain i hide.
Everyday spent on the verge of tears
And none sees the hurt inside.


MAYBE im right.
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